Part of me is relieved, calm, and delighted that I still get to take a nap every day (and use the bathroom as needed)! On the other hand, part of me is uncomfortable. Unsure. Uneasy. And a bit unsettled. You have to understand how much I LOVE teaching. If you know me or you've stepped into my classroom before you know how much I LOVE books, literacy, and designing spaces (www.epicspacedesign.com)! I love integrating subject areas. I love research projects and technology integration. I am the definition of "a teacher nerd." I bought and read books about reading strategies this summer even though I knew I wouldn't be teaching. I love guided reading and guided math. I really really love writer's workshop! Teaching is my passion, but this is the first time in about twelve years that I'm not "the teacher." I'm not the one that students or parents are coming to visit on meet the teacher night, and I'm not the one who's getting ready to embark on a brand new journey with 22 precious sweet new faces! I think primary teachers have the best job ever! It probably sounds crazy to think that I may
With all of that being said, I'm sure you're saying. . .this is so simple Brooke, "Get over it! Get yourself together! Just enjoy your time, sit back, rest, take it easy, and relax!" This too is easier said than done. Don't get me wrong, I adore my children. I'm looking forward to cooking a "real breakfast"
So here's my turning point. I will not worry or be anxious. There is a line in my personal faith statement that says, "My attitude and outlook on life are not determined by my situations, surroundings, circumstances, or feelings." I choose to have faith, to speak confidently over my life, and to experience God's peace in the midst of this time of transition. Even though I don't necessarily know the teachers, God does. We've been praying for them all summer long-that their summer break would be a time of renewal, relaxation, and rejuvenation (because my school age children are 3 boys. . .all very intelligent, but definitely 150% boy). On that note, it's quite o.k. if I'm not with my children because God is with them. We're training our children to be Christ like leaders who are full of the word of God. I'm trusting that the God that is in them is far greater than anything that I could provide by being down the hall or in an adjacent wing. Mr. Perry and I also have a challenge for ourselves during this school year. We intend to bless the socks off of our kids' teachers! We not only want to shower them with gifts and treats throughout the year, but we also want to be a blessing in their lives by keeping them continually lifted in prayer. We'd love to send words of encouragement, random notes of appreciation, but most of all I hope our children are blessings to their teachers every single day by being respectful leaders with integrity who are willing to do what they can to make their classroom and school a better place.
I know what it is to be a teacher. I know the countless hours of tireless work and relentless energy that teachers exude. I am certain that if we choose to be a blessing in the lives of those who are loving on my heartbeats while they're at school, helping our children learn, and impacting them in a tremendous way, this will be the best school year ever. We're going to keep praying for our teachers, and I'm definitely praying for all of my friends who are still in the trenches. I'm looking forward to what lies ahead, and each day it becomes more and more clear that I'm on the right path. Who knows I might even be a room mom!